Missing my good friend sleep.

So I have not been sleeping the last week or so. I miss my sleep! Being up even before my hubby gets up to go to PT in the morning is rubbish I tell you. My hubby and friend V like to tease that I might be pregnant. Every time I have something a bit different than normal they are both like you know that is a sign your pregnant. They even had me on the curious train that I took an online quiz! Cracks me up. In case you are curious the quiz said if I missed my monthly to take a pregnancy test since it couldn't say I was or wasn't.

Don't get me wrong. If it comes out positive I will be super excited and terrified all at the same time. I (we) want a family terribly bad (even though we were needing to wait till November to try for the 18 mos.) but then I have this panic wash over me about gaining back weight. It literally terrifies me with physical symptoms of a panic attack almost. That bad. I read (see no sleep lots of time) that this is a normal response for women who have undergone a WLS surgery. I know if I take a pregnancy test and it does come back positive next week that I will certainly talk to my Dr. about continuing to hopefully loose while I am pregnant but of course being healthy and safe for the baby. The baby is what would be important. But I will cross that bridge when we come to it.

Today I am going to go and visit a friend who's hubby deployed recently. I was thinking of bringing a treat with me. She mentioned a bakery she had been wanting to try a treat from so I may swing by and see what they have. Not sure what I will pick up since most places don't have SF (sugar free) options and I can't even think what a full sugar cupcake with yummy frosting would do to me! Hmmm maybe I will see if they have a menu online or on Facebook. I also thought about hitting the farmers market and picking up a cantaloupe. (I ate an entire cantaloupe basically yesterday) When we get together we drink tea, eat sweet, and chat our little heads off. She has the cutest 3 year old ever. He just loves to giggle and giggle.

Well google said terrible things about the bakery. Maybe I will try elsewhere...sigh. Oh and I will be trying the tilapia tots again this evening with some grilled cauliflower. Keeping my fingers crossed I don't break a glass over this set!